Suicide on Sale (Released 2011 by Blue Helix) as featured in 2026 film Mercy

This rooms contagious

Won't you stare at me

And follow blindly, live swallowing

We are a market, selling suicide

Kneeling down now, we inject these lies

So sell me all your lies

Invest in suicide

Feeling so dead inside

Am I still alive?

We are slaves to our machines

We are slaves losing all our dreams

Its so unreal, yeah

So sell me all your lies

Invest in suicide

Feeling so dead inside

Am I still alive?

With open eyes, yeah

Come on, stay strong

Suicide, suicide, suicide on sale

Complicated

Complicated, I know you are, but what the hell am I?
Feeling frustrated, sometimes you make me wanna cry.
Check my phone and check my pockets too—
Might as well, baby, that's what you do (doo wop).

Search my past and browser history,
But maybe, baby, how 'bout some mystery?
I tried so hard to make you happy (doo wop wop).
I love your baby like she's mine (doo wop wop).
So why am I alone outside,
Sleeping in that old minivan tonight?

Complicated, I know you are, but what the hell am I?
Feeling frustrated, sometimes you make me really wanna die.
And if another man wants to take you home tonight,
I'll show him all the scars from your little love bites,
Because you're complicated, but still the love of my life.

You're bored tonight, so why not start a fight?
My beautiful baby, that's what you do (doo wop, should we walk).
You scream my name and then you call me names,
My crazy lover drives me insane.

I work all day then make us dinner (doo wop wop).
I clean the house and rub your feet (doo wop wop).
So why am I alone outside,
Sleeping in that old minivan again?

Complicated, I know you are, but what the hell am I?
Feeling frustrated, sometimes you make me really wanna die (walk).
And if another man wants to take you home tonight (walk),
I'll show him all the scars from your little love bites (should we walk),
Because you're complicated, but still the love of my (should we walk away).

You're complicated—sometimes you make me really wanna (should we walk, should we walk away).
You're complicated, oh, complicated (should we walk, should we walk away).
But still the love... oh, never mind (should we walk, should we walk away).

Anodyne

And still I’m here, waiting for my sweet anodyne.
If I share with you the colors of my heart,
Will you stand with me and take me in your arms?
I’ll be holding on until the world is gone.

What fuels me now gives me sight,
Born of lies, lies that are mine.
Letting go is sometimes hard to do—
To be free, you must choose.

Embrace me, slowly, my own cyanide.
Hoping you save me, my sweet anodyne.
If I share with you the colors of my heart,
Will you stand with me and take me in your arms?
I’ll be holding on until the world is gone.

Even though you don’t believe in me,
It doesn’t mean my life is all just fantasy.
I am a dreamer in a false reality,
And I know I’m not alone.

All this pain—you gotta let it go.
Take my hand, let’s lose control.

Anti-Social Butterfly

The Devil came to me today,
Asked me if I’d sell myself to play.
He said, “No one gives a damn
About your dreams or your master plan.”

I carry weight as heavy as scars.
I wear my pain like it’s art.
If it’s time to let it all go,
Maybe I can take a piece to hold.

And I would sell my soul.
There’s nothing left to save at all.
They’ve taken everything.
And if I could, I’d wish it all away.
I’d disassociate, drive them all insane—
This has become my own type of hell.

You don’t like the man I am,
Like I ruined all your plans.
He said, “Son, it’s just a tiny phase,
Or maybe time to revelate.”

Anti-social butterfly—
Spread your wings and learn to lie.
You take me for a broken man,
But baby, I’m your biggest fan.

I just wanna feel something.
I just wanna be someone else.
I just wanna feel something now!

You don’t like the man I am,
Like I ruined all your plans.
I’m an anti-social butterfly,
And I am here to take what’s mine!

This Tragedy

Ready the people, it’s time to panic.
Masks are now dropping, the air is thinning.
There’s so much left unsaid—
I’ll just give my soul instead.

Heaven abandoned us, alone in this tragedy.
Fathers are praying for life without meaning.
Children are screaming, and God’s not listening.
There’s so much left unsaid—
I’ll just give my soul instead.

As I’m searching for meaning now,
I dream of a life without
Black lies and empty vows.
On my way out, I’ll take a bow,
Scream out loud—there’s no way out.
It’s all over now.

There’s so much left unsaid—
I’ll just give my soul instead.
Heaven abandoned us, alone in this tragedy.
As I’m searching for meaning now,
I dream of a life without
Black lies and empty vows.
On my way out, I’ll take a bow,
Scream out loud—there’s no way out.
Let’s burn it down.

Enemy

I woke up today hating who I am.
From start to end, was born to pretend.
(It never ends.)
I wear this mask, hoping you can't see—
(You’re still the same.)
The man who’s buried deep inside of me.

Enemy, enemy, will you face me?
I’ll be waitin', but I won’t let all your hate consume my life.
Rescue me from this cage that I’ve created
And has taken me, but I’ll never let it define who I am—enemy.

I hold on to the past and my regrets.
(No future left.)
Guilty as charged, there’s no turning back.
(You must confess.)
If I could, I would just wish it all away—
(And start again.)
With an ounce of pain, I yield a ton of rage.

Ah, enemy, I’ll be waitin'.

Enemy, enemy, will you face me?
I’ll be waitin', but I won’t let all your hate consume my life.
The beast in me I’ve created has awakened and now taken me.
But I’ll never let it define who I am—no, I’ll never let it define who I am.

Despair

I know my place,
Inside this cage.
There’s no way out—
I hear my fate.

It’s calling now,
We’ve lost control.
I know my place,
Inside this cage.

Sing You to Me

I promise you, that if your love should fade,
I’ll sing you back to me.

From the moment I saw you, I always knew
That I would be a fool for you.
You looked like an angel, dressed in your white ripped blue jeans.
Oh, I hope you see the way I’m looking at you now.

And I promise you, that if your love should fade,
I’ll sing you back to me.
And I promise you, that if your heart should break,
I’ll sing you back to me.

The kind of girl who’s never late
But always stays up late for me.
With just a smile, you stop the war
And bring the peace back into me.

My sweetest surrender, one look was all it took,
And now I’m hooked on those green eyes
And that long dark brown hair.

And I promise you, that if your love should fade,
I’ll sing you back to me.
And I promise you, that if your heart should break,
I’ll sing you back to me.

Even as the world grows cold and burns right to the ground,
Just know that I will be right here by your side,
Holding you tight, my love.
And when it’s time, I will find you again, love.

I promise you, that if your love should fade,
I’ll sing you back to me.
And I promise you, that if your heart should break,
I’ll sing you back to me.

I’ll sing you back to me, yeah.
I’ll sing you back to me

Take on Me

We're talking away,
Well, I don’t know what I’m to say.
I’ll say it anyway—
Today’s another day to find you
Shying away.
I’ll be coming for your love, okay?

Take on me (take on me).
Take me on (take on me).
I’ll be gone
In a day or two.

So needless to say,
I’m odds and ends,
But that’s me, I’m stumblin’ away,
Slowly learning that life is okay.
Say after me:
It’s no better to be safe than sorry.

Take on me (take on me).
Take me on (take on me).
I’ll be gone
In a day or two.

Oh, the things that you say—
Is it life or just to play my worries away?
You’re all the things I’ve got to remember.
You’re shying away.
I’ll be coming for you anyway.

Take on me (take on me).
Take me on (take on me).
I’ll be gone
In a day or two.

The Awakening

So I’d like to tell you that every, every single thing
Will be alright, but some things will never be the same.

Ooh, ooh, will never be the same.
Ooh, ooh.

So numb we’ve become
To words that slip away,
And so much damage done.
If you believe your life is a scene on a movie screen,
Then it’s time to grow
And take back control.

Ooh, ooh, you gotta pull yourself together.
Ooh, ooh, it’s time to make a change.
Ooh, ooh, so I’d like to tell you that every, every single thing
Will be alright, but some things will never be the same.

It’s hard to let this pain go,
But that’s how we find our way—
Find our way back home.
We all stumble through, like most all dreamers do,
But now it’s time that we show.
Don’t wanna sleep no more.

Find our way back home—
Will never be the same.
You gotta pull yourself together, it’s time to make a change.
We gotta carry each other, it’s time to make a change.
It’s time to welcome change.
You gotta pull yourself together,
It’s time to make a change.

So I’d like to tell you that every, every single thing
Will be alright, but some things will never be the same.

Little One

There’s a hunger in your eyes,
A look to paralyze that takes my heart again.
I fantasize I’m dreamin’.
I’m half alive but breathin’,
So I know it’s time to go—
I’m not welcome here anymore.

As I take one for the road,
I’ll say bring me back, bring me back,
Right before the show.

I say hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey now,
Where are you goin’ with my heart?
I said bring it back, bring it back.
Where are you goin’ with my heart, little one?

They love to see the mighty fall,
And I’m tired of fallin’.
But for my little one, I’d do it again.

I must confess I’m ready
To be reborn and buried.
You know I love the way it hurts,
So I keep coming back for more.

As I take one for the road,
I’ll say bring me back, bring me back,
Right before the show.

I say hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey now,
Where are you goin’ with my heart?
I said bring it back, bring it back.
Where are you goin’ with my heart, little one?

There’s a hunger in your eyes,
A look to paralyze that takes my heart again.

Where are you goin’ with my heart?
I said bring it back, bring it back.
Where are you goin’ with my heart?

I said bring it back, bring it back.
Where are you goin’ with my heart, little one?

Where are you goin’ with my heart, little one?

Tidal Wave

We accept the love we think we deserve.
We all speak the words we needed to hear.
We try to become something more,
More than we are.

As we’ve learned, all things fade away.
Here comes the tidal wave.

I know, I know, I turned my back and left you all alone.
I know, I hurt you like you never hurt before.
Is there forgiveness for someone like me?

Burning all the photographs won’t change the past.
We’re never really all alone, no.
We have our regrets.

As we’ve learned, all things fade away.
Here comes the tidal wave.

I know, I know, I turned my back and left you all alone.
I know, I hurt you like you never hurt before.
Is there forgiveness? Will you set me free?

It’s a mystery to me, a broken melody.
My mind’s a million miles away.
No hero in the flames.
No pill to ease the pain.
No pain at all.

I know, I know, I turned my back and left you all alone.
I know, I hurt you like you never hurt before.
Is there forgiveness?

I know, I know, I turned my back and left you all alone.
I know, I hurt you like you never hurt before.
Is there forgiveness? Will you set me free?

Extraordinary World

If you feel you’re all alone,
Then you’re not at all alone.
It’s really only ordinary in an extraordinary world.

You’d like to be someone
Before you disappear.
It’s really only ordinary in an extraordinary world.

What’s the price we have to pay
To live another day?
It’s all become so complicated, we lost and lonely souls.

All that I am, and all that I ever was,
Was never good enough—good enough for you.

Can you feel the emptiness?
And the silence all around?
It’s all become so ordinary in an extraordinary world.

If you don’t give it a name,
Then it dies all the same.
It’s only ever complicated when the mind has lost control.

All that I am, and all that I ever was,
Was never good enough—good enough for you.
All that I am, and all that I ever was,
I finally faced the truth: not good enough for you.

Was never good enough for you, never good enough for you.

If you feel you’re all alone,
Then you’re not at all alone.
It’s really only ordinary.

Dirty Your Soul

And if I knew
That life would split me in two,
Maybe I would not have given so much,
‘Cause it’ll dirty your soul.

It’ll dirty your soul.

If today’s tomorrow could speak,
What would it say to me?
Would it warn me of the road ahead,
Or wait for me to pass instead?

And if I knew
That life would split me in two,
Maybe I would not have given so much,
‘Cause it’ll dirty your soul.

It’ll dirty your soul.

If today’s tomorrow could sing,
Would it serenade or scream?
Every hurricane always has a name.

And if I knew
That life would split me in two,
Maybe I would not have given so much,
‘Cause it’ll dirty your soul.

It’ll dirty your soul.
It’ll dirty your soul.
It’ll dirty your soul.

And I’m not afraid, I will live for today.
And I’m not afraid, I will live for today.

And if I knew the secrets to life,
I would share them with you.
But it’ll dirty your soul.
It’ll dirty your soul.

Life will dirty your soul.
It’ll dirty your soul

This Majesty

I would know your face
In the deepest, darkest place.
I could feel your grace
On that lonely mountainscape.

And as I fight my way out of hell,
I realize the things I’ve done could never be undone.

And I know it’s here in my misery.
And I know it’s here with me in this majesty.

And if I climb to you,
Would you stand and share your view?
Forgive what I have done—
I’m a man who burns the sun.

And as I fight my way out of hell,
I realize the things I’ve done could never be undone.

And I know it’s here in my misery.
And I know it’s here with me in this majesty.

Disappear, disappear, disappear—
All this guilt and fear, in the flesh, in my soul.
Reappear, who I was.

And if I stand before God at the end of my life,
I’ll surrender forever.

Love cannot die—no question that I will remember.
Where do we go, and where does it end?
Do we have the time to make our amends?

Into the unknown, we travel alone.
In the break of the storm, awaken my soul

Serenade the Darkness

If you lie to me, I’ll stay another night.
I no longer see my reflection in your eyes.
All I hoped we’d be has faded from the light.
The more you deny my pain, the more it grows inside.

How I wish you would ache for me the way I ache for you.
I said, I would die for you, though I never meant like this.
I never meant like this.
No, I never wanted this.

Body heals, the soul breaks with scars that never fade.
Serenade the darkness, and the sun will take its place.
The more you deny my pain, the more it grows inside.

How I wish you would ache for me the way I ache for you.
I said, I would die for you, though I never meant like this.
A cold and empty kiss.
A plague upon your lips.
No, I never wanted—

The way you deny my pain, the more that it grows inside.
How I wish you would ache for me the way I ache for you.
I said, I would die for you, though I never meant like this.
I never meant like this.
No, I never wanted this.
I never wanted this.
No, I never meant like this.
No, I never wanted.

All Over Again

I found what I was looking for,
Hiding in the cellar door.
Lovers from another past
Watch the sand fill the glass.

And if there is no tomorrow,
In another life, I’d find you—
Just so I could tell you
That I’ll give my life
To be the man who gives you light.

And then I will take away
All your pain and make you shine.
Oh, I will make you mine,
All over again.

Love doesn’t know its depth
Till distance sets the test.
Your beauty and honesty
Gives me the strength I need.

And if there is no tomorrow,
In another life, I’d find you—
Just so I could tell you
That I’ll give my life
To be the man who gives you light.

And then I will take away
All your pain, and make you shine.
Oh, I will make you mine,
All over again.

Dreams of Yesterday

We are stars that burn and die.
As we fall, we paint the sky.
Even though we drift to sea,
The love we shared lives with me.

So, who am I to you?
You were all I ever knew
And taken from me.

There was no kiss when we said goodbye,
Only pain in those beautiful eyes
As they let me go.
I cried and I begged you to stay,
But you kept pushing me away.

So, I’ll be gone
When you come home.

Addicted to your memory,
Falling slowly, drowning me.
Running faster, far away.
This dream, it seems, I cannot wake.

So, who am I supposed to be?
You were everything, you see,
And left me crawling.

There was no kiss when we said goodbye,
Only pain in those beautiful eyes
As they let me go.
I cry and I beg you to stay,
But you kept pushing me away.

And I’ll always know—it’s so hard to let go.
I’m lost in the darkness.
Can you find my love?

Bring us back to yesterday.
Will you still remember me?
And let love’s memory
Live yesterday.

It’s Just Me

They say that being lost is a great place to start.
I think that being lost is the way to find your heart.
I used to be so young,
And now I’m so far gone.
I don’t remember why I tried
To not be me.

So many years ago,
When I was young and full of joy,
I used to smoke too much
And laugh at forgotten thoughts.

I used to wonder why
I couldn’t hear my God’s cries.
Oh no.

I used to be so young,
And now I’m so far gone.
I don’t remember why I tried
To not be me.

It’s just me.
It’s just me.
But if you leave me all alone,
I’ll have no place to go.

If you break me apart,
I won’t start again.
I’m too far gone.

It’s just me.
I’ll always stay up late,
Just to wait for the sun.
Memories of pain—
I’m no stranger to the rain.

It’s only me.
It’s just me.
It’s just me.

Dance Monkey

They say, oh my God I see the way you shine
Take your hand, my dear, and place them both in mine
You know you stopped me dead while I was passing by
And now I beg to see you dance just one more time

Ooh, I see you, see you, see you every time
And oh my I, I, I like your style
You, you make me, make me, make me wanna cry
And now I beg to see you dance just one more time

So they say
"Dance for me, dance for me, dance for me, oh-oh oh
I've never seen anybody do the things you do before"
"They say, move for me, move for me, move for me, ay-ay ay
And when you're done, I'll make you do it all again"

I said, "Oh my God I see you walking by
Take my hands, my dear, and look me in my eyes"
Just like a monkey, I've been dancing my whole life
But you just beg to see me dance just one more time

Ooh, I see you, see you, see you every time
And oh my I, I, I, I like your style
You, you make me, make me, make me wanna cry
And now I beg to see you dance just one more time

They say
"Dance for me, dance for me, dance for me, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
I've never seen anybody do the things you do before"
"They say, move for me, move for me, move for me
Ay-ay ay eh ay eh ay
And when you're done, I'll make you do it all again"

All again